03/18/11: Yay for Friday's!!!

I told you yesterday that I was hungry.  Member that?  I specifically said "FEED ME".  Member that?

I'm sure you do.  I'm sure your whole purpose in life is to memorize my blog.  I know these things.

So, I'm eating.  Last night for dinner, ready for this?  I ate until I was satisfied - not full.  I wasn't full.  I could have eaten more.  Ready for this?  A salad with the best ginger dressing in the world.  3 pieces of pan fried gyoza.  2 pieces of sushi.  And nearly a whole sizzling shrimp plate - about 8 shrimp and tons of veggies.

Ok, so I won't mention that lunch was "only" almonds and peanuts.  Not the plan, don't worry, I had every intention of eating a real lunch and my plan blew up in my face leaving me with only what I had at my desk to eat.  Oh yeah, and a serving size bag of Chili Cheese Fritos.  Good healthy lunch - HA!  Breakfast - typical smoothie and typical coffee (1/3 caf).

I'm eating.  There aint no way out of that - even with only peanuts and almonds for lunch, I am definitely eating.

And today?  I lost weight.  If I lose another pound tomorrow - I'll be at an all time low - at least on this journey.  Apparently my body REALLY  likes my hormones being UP.  Although I am a crying mess already.

I've been eating like this for days now; I can't believe how drastically my appetite has picked up.  Normally, I'd have 4 or 5 shrimp for dinner and a few veggies.  Normally, I'd have 3-4oz of either chicken salad or leftover "stir-fry" for lunch.

Don't worry, our stir fry is not what you think it is.  It's chicken or pork (shredded) with all the veggies you can think of.  And the "sauce" is 3 tbsp olive oil, juice of half a lemon, dash of seasalt, and then whatever herbs you like (that's enough sauce for 1lb of protein and 1 bunch of asparagus, 4 crowns of broccoli, 1/4 snow peas, 1/2 box of mushrooms, 3 zucchini, 1/2 red onion, and 1 bell pepper).  I like an Italian Herb mix or Herbes de Prevence, usually.  So that's our stir-fry.  Not salt laden typical Chinese stir-fry.

Anywho, it's interesting to me to be able to eat when I'm hungry and eat until I'm satisfied - not full.  It's like this is how this is supposed to work, ya know?  I eat when I'm hungry and that's it.  I'm not worried about calories - I'm worried about nutrition.  I feel like my body will tell me if I'm not doing enough to support the baby.  I feel like my body will tell me what I need.  To me, that's what the band has given me - the ability to pay attention to what I feel like.

Because of the crazy unfill I had to have at the end of February my clinic wanted me to come back at the end of this month for a follow-up.  I don't know what I think about a fill vs. unfill vs. just leaving it alone.  I know for damned sure I don't want a fill.  I kinda feel like I could actually stand to lose a little more fill, maybe as much as 0.5cc's (little, eh? - read sarcastically).  And then I also think I could leave it alone.  Today, right now, my fill level is fine.  I'm afraid, though, that when the baby really starts to grow - and so does my belly - and when my organs start to push northwards, well, I think I could be in trouble at that point.  I also think that if I wait until that point - it might be harder to find the port.  So...I am leaning towards even more of an unfill in about a week and a half.  Like I said, maybe as much as 0.5cc's.  Hell...maybe even more.  I can see merit in just removing ALL of the fluid.  I can really see how that would be wise to do proactively.

Right now it's not an issue.  But at five months, it might start to become one and at nine months it might be an insane issue.  I don't want to repeat what happened in February - especially not when I'm sustaining two.

Oh yeah, and the coffee...well, back before we started trying again, we took our fave (Moka Java, which we can only find in full caf) and diluted that with our second fave (Columbian), which we can get in decaf.  So it was about half and half.  Then I found another bag of coffee in our freezer that was also decaf, again Columbian, so I diluted again.  If it was 1/3 caf I'd be surprised cause poundage wise there was far more of the decaf than there was of the caf.  Yesterday we went and bought more decaf to add to our already diluted mix.  So I'm pretty sure caffeine is pretty low.  It's not nothing, because there is still some of the Moka Java in there...but it's pretty minimal.  I added 1.5lbs of decaf to about .33 pounds of the diluted mix.  When this is gone, I will go to all decaf.  I have also cut out all other sources of caffeine.  I'm surprised at how easy it's been.  When I want a soda (which I do, typically every day, one, that is) I grab a 7-Up or Sprite or Ginger Ale.  Most of the time, it's just plain ol water - which I can say, consumption of has definitely increased.  My body just wants it.  I know they say that we can have caffeine, nowadays anyway.  Most things/docs say 1-2 cups of coffee or 2-3 sodas or whatever combo you want (including chocolate) that keeps you under 200mg.  I find, though, and it was the same way last time, that I really just don't want it. 

I am so ready for the weekend.  We love the NCAA tourney and I know we have a ton of basketball on our radar for the weekend.  Works for me!  I'll watch basketball all day long and lift weights in between sitting sessions.  Sounds like a wonderful weekend to me!

I hope y'all have a great one, too!