06/01/10: I'm confused....no wait...I get it...no wait...

So I said yesterday that I lost 3 pounds in the entire month of May.  Woohoo!  NOT.  Don't know that anyone read that far in the blog, though, and even if you did, well, what do you say to that anyway?!!

I lost 3 pounds last night.  That doubles what I claimed to have lost.  So I managed to eek out 6 pounds in the entire month of May.  Who cares that half of it was in the last 5 hours of the month!!!

I know my slow weightloss is courtesy of bandster hell while also starting up my weightlifting.  I had expected more loss from my program but I'm alright with what's going on.

I mean...on the one hand - yes, I want to be dropping a gazillion pounds overnight.

But on the other hand - my body is shrinking.  There's no way out of it.  I can get mad at the scale but the scale is only speaking a part of the story.

When I measured on Sunday I know that things are moving around.  My waist is bigger but my hips are smaller.  My chest is bigger but my arms are smaller.  This was in comparison to the Sunday before.  Overall, last week, I lost no inches.  Things just moved.  And that's ok.

My body is taking care of itself.  I know that fluids are being moved around, blood cells are being created to help feed the muscles - and muscle is growing.  This is all good.

I'm fine with that.

Is this 3 pounds the start of what I expected things to be like?  Who knows.  I'm not going to sit here and say it is.  I'm also not going to sit here and say it isn't.  I know that I appreciate each time the scale moves and I successfully managed to beat my frustration back with a 2X4 this time.

Many of the other times I started weightlifting to lose weight, when this would happen, I'd get frustrated and I'd allow my indulgences.  I did not do that this time and I won't start now!  That's a huge major accomplishment and someday in the near future - who knows exactly when - this not allowing my frustration to beat me will pay off.

Is this my 3 pounds for the week?  Or will there be more?  Either way it goes - 3 pounds in a week is nothing to balk over!!!

Wanna hear the funny part?  I ate donuts for breakfast yesterday.  2 of 'em.  Did you know that a donut is not as bad for you as a slice of pizza?  Yep.  It's true.

And then for lunch I ate a cheeseburger sans bun (wrapped in lettuce) and tater tots with cheese.  Yuummmm stuff.  I love me some tater tots with cheese!  Dinner was much more reasonable and interestingly enough there was not a lick of snacking yesterday.  With all of that, and the choices were made and tested in my little tracking system and put together in advance of actually taking a bite, my calorie count was 1055.

Good to know.  Donuts don't kill my day - and they still get through my band, too!  I don't eat many donuts, don't worry but you know me - this isn't a diet.  Nothing is off limits.  I eat donuts about 3-4 times a year.  If you tell me that I can never have 'em, I'll want 'em all the time but because I can have 'em, I can keep 'em in control.

Anywho.  Weird stuff.  I'm excited for my 3 pounds.  1 more pound and it's finally time for another set of during photos.  This last 10 pounds has been slow going...but...surgery...bandster hell...start of a weight training program (I started my third week of my first five week program last night)...it's no wonder it hasn't been amazing progress.  Soon it will be...I hope...but I've been beating this body up!  It's no surprise that my body isn't quick to reward what it thinks is punishment!  Soon it will have to realize I'm trying to help!!!  :)

In case you want to see the garden photos that I just have to share with you...here they are.  Remember - I started most all of my plants from seed and they are really just starting to take off.  My zucchini and squash all died - I put them in the ground and then two days later we had 4 inches of rain in about 2 hours.  They drowned.  I need to start them over and that's the plan this week although I want to mound up more dirt where those are supposed to be.  That rain also killed off most all of the herbs I started - but I know I can start those again, too.

 
This is the side yard where my garden lives.  Originally we put this fence up so we could keep the dogs in there and away from the pool.  We had three dogs at the time and the third was a troublemaker (although a sweetheart, she was just a prankster).  With the third dog gone - she moved away to a stay at home mom and two kids and a husband/dad who worked from home so she could have all the attention she thought she deserved plus she gained a ton of space - we no longer have to pen the dogs up.  So now I'm using this to keep the dogs out.  :)

In this bed I have cucumbers, broccoli, an artichoke, jalapenos, carrots, leeks, and celery.  The cucumbers are doing really well.  The "cattle panel" is for them to grow up and over on so that they don't just mound on the ground.  They are getting to the point that I can start training them to do so.

In this bed it's all strawberries.  I had the zucchini and the squash along the "cattle panel" so that they could go up and over as well, but like I said, they all drowned.  So right now it's just strawberries.  I love me my strawberries!  Eventually, my thinking right now, is that the grass will come out of this side yard and strawberries will be my groundcover with stepping stones placed so that we can still move around.  We had a gazillion strawberry plants in my backyard when I was a kid and we could feed 10 people every Sunday with all that grew.  I would love to get to that!

And finally, this is the last bed and looking back at the fence.  I have potatoes, onions, horseradish, shallots, and garlic in here.   There is also a single green bean in here.  These are all new for me to grow so am not sure how it's going to work out.  :)

In the big pots are where I'm growing my herbs.  The one under the cattle panel was my cilantro (my fave) but it drowned.  I need to start it over but I need to take out the soil and put in some gravel to help it drain off...and maybe a few more drain holes, too.  The one closest is basil.  And basically, right under where I'm standing is a basil bush (in the same type of pot).  The basil bush is fine - the basil, on the other hand, drowned.  And then along the house there are more pots on stands.  There is oregano, sage, dill, thyme and parsley.  I think if you look at the top picture you can see the arrangement, kinda, of those pots.

And finally, that's a pear tree in the ground at the end by the little fence.  And we have another lemon tree to go in, as well.

And that's my little garden!  I like it the way it is but it's just a start.

Have a great week, y'all.  Kinda sucks to be back at work but it's also nice to take a break!