07/30/10: It's Friday and that means...

• I have now blogged five days in a row.
• Did you think I was still capable of this?
• I probably won't do this next week.
• Next week I start my "gateway exam" which is a 450 question test that I have to pass to be eligible for my next promotion.  It's broken up into 19 tests and each one is timed.  And I must pass all or I'll have to retake the whole thing.  I'll have two weeks to do this - but I'm taking two days off around next weekend(Aug 6 and 9) so that I can head out to Cali to be with my grandmother on her 85th (and my 35th) birthday.
• I've literally done nothing this week.  No work whatsoever.  I've had two vaguely work-related conversations.  But other than those, I've done absolutely nothing "productive" for my company.
• On the other hand, I've done a lot of productive reading for myself.
• I still have a lot of reading to do.
• But the more I read...the more I lose.  This week has been awesome.  3 pounds...and it aint over.  My newest low this morning...although it was yanked away from me just as the scale flashed to it's result for the day.  It bounced back and forth and back and forth between 215.6 and 215.8 for ten seconds before flashing to 216.0 at the last flash, which was the official number.  I like 215...and I want to take credit for it...since the scale seemed to be so unsure.  But I'll stick with my 216 for today and hope that tomorrow...or Sunday...
• 215 is what I was when I met my hubby.
• He's moving into unchartered territory now.  :)
• Baby-making is fun.
• Did you monitor your BBT when trying to conceive?
• At Pie's prompting, I went and searched for an app for my iPhone and found one that's awesome!  It's called iPeriod.  And it does A LOT.  It did cost me money but I was willing to pay, in this instance, because this is a valuable tool for so much more than trying to conceive.
• I'm using it conceive.  (Not 100% guaranteed, of course, but it's a good tool.)
• you could use it to try not to conceive.  (Not 100% guaranteed, of course, but it's a good tool.)
• you can track
• your weight
• your moods
• your BBT
• your days
• your cycle
• your "symptoms" (which could be related to just about anything female)
• your fertility (if you do or know how to check some of that stuff)
• it gives you summaries and graphs and an idea of what to expect
• and this info...that I've been accumulating now for about three days (although I backtracked and updated a few days before I downloaded the app) is telling me more than I ever knew about  my body.
• I feel so tuned in....and I didn't think I wasn't....
• even my hubby likes it!
• I figure monitoring my BBT is about like getting on the scale every morning.  I'm just curious.  And if it turns out to be useful or helpful information...well, great.  If not, well, at the very least I've learned something.  Won't mean anything this month...but maybe next month it might.  Seems worth it, to me, to see what I might could learn.  (Like that?  I don't usually like things like "might could"...but it seemed appropriated...)
• What else....
• What do you know about exercise/weightlifting while pregnant?  Was I offbase in what I said the other day?  (Basically, that I can weightlift so long as the exercise does not have me lieing down.)  Just because I can, does that mean I should?  What would you do?
• I've gotta talk to my Dr...
• Let's see.  The baby-making/pregnancy obsession I had earlier this week is actually waning.  So I'm probably gonna go quiet on this topic for a bit.  No guarantees...but...not obsessing about it today like I was on, for example, Tuesday...
• We are going to a friend's for dinner tonight.  I can't wait.  She's such a fabulous cook!  Yep, I'm looking forward to eating.  She's making us homemade spring rolls, homemade shumai, and homemade pad thai.  She also is making us boiled shrimp, a fruit plate and a veggie plate for pre-dinner snacks while soaking in their gorgeous pool.  This friend works with my husband so he gets to see her regularly, while I, on the other hand, have not seen her since Christmas.  It will be great to catch up!  I can't wait, too.  Sitting here thinking of what a great evening it will be while having no work to do at work is just torture.
• So...looking forward to eating...should be interesting...since I've been claiming left and right...that I can't eat.
• I logged into my GoBe's online tracker and put in there what I would like to eat tonight to see how the calories worked out.  I can have two spring rolls, two shumai, 4oz of shrimp and all the veggies I want.  I'll stay away from the fruit, actually, since I had my smoothie (which is 4 servings of fruit) this morning and fruit can make calories add up quite a bit faster than veggies can.
• Doesn't sound like much, eh?  Well.  It won't happen.  That's my prediction.
• I told my husband what I could eat.
• He laughed.
• Said "that won't happen".
• I am gonna bet that I'll end up with one spring roll and two shumai and 2oz of shrimp.
• And I will enjoy it all. 
• But I'll also be sad.
• What I described above adds up to ~440 calories, 30g protein, and 29g carbs.  That 440 calories also includes one glass of red wine.
• That's not a lot.  It's not bad and it's not a lot and it's a treat, anyway.  I won't get to eat her spring rolls and shumai again until Christmas.  And I've been really good this week.  I've eaten out once - my one time for the week - and it was a good eat out choice.  My lunches have been on track, my dinners have been on track, I've exercised according to plan.  This week, and especially when compared to the last six, has been stellar.
• So I want to enjoy.  Want want want to enjoy.
• And I'm betting it won't happen.
• Yet....I'm still looking forward to it.  Of course, I'm looking forward to the company more than anything.
• I think it's odd.  Because I can't eat right at the moment, I'm actually obsessing about food more than I used to.
• The last time we went there for dinner (pre-band) I was vaguely aware that I was going to eat fabulous food and was specifically aware that I was going to enjoy great company.
• Now, it's swapped.  I'm thinking about what I want to eat.  I'm preparing for what's wise and ok.  And I'm thinking about how I'll feel when it blows up in my face.  Think there's a self-fulfilling prophecy there?
• That's why I think I'm too tight.  I had soooo hoped for that perfect balance of restricted enough to not be able to overdo it (like I did last time I was there for dinner, pre-band) but not so restricted that I was worried about whether I'd enjoy it and be satisfied.  I had soooo hoped for that perfect balance of just not having to worry!
• But that's not where I am.  I get stuck.  Stuck makes me feel full (a good thing except this happens at bite #3).  Feeling full after 3 bites.....so not satisfying.
• Now....here's the whacky part.
• I think I need another fill.
• WHAT?
• I can't eat...satisfaction is a thing of the past....and I want more?
• What kind of crazy logic is that?
• I have an appt scheduled for Aug 10.  I wanted it for
• in case my infected incision still hasn't closed up (which it hasn't, completely)
• in case I somehow needed a fill
• if neither of the above situations were applicable, I'd cancel it.
• well...the infected incision is almost completely closed up.  So...in the next week...that reason might get taken off the table
• and the fill is a trick
• It just occurred to me...I need to change it.  No matter what.  I'll be on my (.) on Aug 10 and I'm wide open on those days (and a few leading up to it).  I need my fills to be middle of my cycle.  I think that's why my last fill has ended up feeling so tight...I was on my (.) at the time...and so it looked like I needed more than I did (they do all fills under fluoroscopy).
• Do you get that I'm totally rambling?
• I have no work to do...so what else can I do but ramble?
• Have I ever told you my husband is a saint?
• Seriously.  He is.
• He puts up with me.
• and that's a TALL TALL order!
• Very tall.
• And....he somehow keeps a smile on his face while doing so.
• Have I ever told you that I love lifting weights?
• Love it.  Really.  Feels great.  My body responds soooo well to it.
• I once heard that we have exercises that our bodies gravitate towards.  Running...swimming...biking...chances are you like one of those better than the others.  For me...it's swimming.  And weightlifting.
• Did I tell you I ran...this would have been Tuesday night?
• Funny story.
• I ran.
• At a good pace (for me), 6 on my treadmill.
• For over a minute.
• Know why I stopped?
• Nope, not because I was tired.
• Nope, not because I was out of breath.
• Nope, not because of a stitch in my side.
• Nope, not because I fell off the treadmill.
• It was because my pants fell off.
• I don't know what's funnier though...that my pants fell off....or that I ran.
• I think it was that I ran...
• Ok...enough babble.  You probably need to get on with your day...
• Have a great weekend, y'all!