12/15/10: Woohoo!!!....and then...

I hit 204 this morning. Skipped right by 205 - the pre-pregnancy weight and went straight to 204...the lowest low I've seen but didn't count because it happened while pregnant. So...I am officially on a weightloss trend. Not that I wasn't...I mean...9 pounds in 11 days is pretty danged awesome! But only 1 of those lost pounds is newly lost. Those other 8...those were repeats. So this 1...it's totally WOOHOO to me...it's new territory. It's different.

Can I hit onederland by Dec 31st? That's my goal. I have 16 days to lose 5 pounds. If this trend of 9 pounds in 11 days holds...sheesh! I'm on a mission. That's all I know!

You excess poundage you...be 'ware! Yer days are numbered!!!

So that't all exciting and woohoo like...

and then...

How's your year been? How do you feel about next year? Will it be good? Bad? Challenging? How was this year? Good? Bad? Challenging?

It makes me kinda sad that all that's really happened "bad" has happened at the end of the year...so 2010 is closing out "bad". I thought for sure that 2010 was going to be a good year. So did my hubby. And now I'm scared. Cause if I think that 2011 is going to be good...does that mean I'm screwed?

I hope 2011 is better than 2010. But here's the good that I can take away from 2010...

• My hubby and I are stronger than ever as a team and a partnership. I love him more than I ever thought possible - which I already did - but a lot of wonderful things about him have been cemented in my head this year. Our union is going strong and getting stronger; every day all I can do is thank God for him! Without him I would not be able to find any reasons for hope.
• I'm still alive and healthy (except in the brain) and in one piece.
• My husband is still alive and healthy and in one piece.
• My dogs are healthy and happy.
• One of my cats is healthy and happy...although my "old man" cat has developed severe arthritis in the past couple of weeks and is in pain all the time - which breaks my heart.
• My family are all still alive...and mostly well...with new members being born to continue the name.
• My husband's family are all still alive and well with new members being born in every which direction.
• I still have a job.
• My husband still has a job - a job in which he was promoted into management this year, which is taking off like nothing I'd ever imagined possible.
• We still have a house and our house is a beautiful home, to us.
• Our cars are still functioning well and still get us to our jobs reliably. 

(yeah, I'm reaching, but a girl's gotta do what a girl's gotta do to have hope!)

• Our neighbors still talk to us and generally act like they like us.
• Our friends still talk to us and generally act like they like us.
• Blogland continues to be absolutely inspirational, as well as completely uplifting. Usually some somebody out there knows exactly what to say to me to help me celebrate, to wipe my tears, to prop me up, to cheer me on. Blogland is amazing and without it, I know I'd be struggling more than I am right now.
• I've lost 60 pounds!  For GOOD!
• I have a wonderful infection to scratch at every danged day.
• My insurance deductible and out-of-pocket max were met leaving me with "free" healthcare at a time when I wouldn't have wanted to pay for a procedure I wound up "needing".

(please note that some of these are said with sincerity and peace and some are dripping with sarcasm.)

• I still love people.
• People still don't love me.

What else? It's been a year. That's all I know. Joys...happiness...adventures...challenges...troubles...hardships...heart-breakers. There are other things that happened this year that I never blogged about, things I will never blog about, that have absolutely broken our hearts to add into this mix.

And yet...I can still smile. Doesn't mean I am...I am not nearly as much as I'd like...but it's in there. It can't be taken away from me. Nor can it be taken away from my husband.

And therein, to me, lies the beauty of it all. My husband. We are a team. We are so onboard with each other, so in tune with each other, it's absolutely sickening and gross - to anybody else but us. Through all that has happened and is happening...we have found that our love is always there and only growing stronger. We have found that we can wake up in the morning and smile because the other one woke up, too. We have found that when we think we can't smile anymore...we can look at each other...and  

There's.  The.  Reason.  Why.  We.  Should.    

My husband is my saving grace. He makes my life livable. He makes it ok to be me...and he appreciates it , too. At the end of 2010...that's what I can say. Who cares about all the rest of it. LHF is in my life and going nowhere. LHF and I are stronger than we've ever been, so in love with each other, so very onboard with a lifetime of more trials and more tribulations. And 2010 did that for us - cemented in our heads that we are exactly where we are supposed to be!  (As if we had any doubt...)