BYOC

1. Name a career you would NOT want to do and tell why.


A career in nursing.  I do not have it in me to put everyone ahead of myself.  I will do that when I have kids, I do that with my husband (which is easy since he also does this with me) - but I cannot do that at work.  My mom was a nurse for most of my adolescent years becoming a nurse practitioner when I went to college/joined the Navy.  I thought for a long time I wanted to follow in her footsteps and she didn't want me to.  For a lot of reasons, but not for the reason I listed above.  Turns out, she was right.  I would not have been good at it.


2. What’s the best present you ever received for your birthday?

I share my birthday with my grandmother.  I was born on her 50th birthday.  I can't think of a thing that was awesome and sticks with me to this day, but all the birthdays I've shared with her have been on the amazing day list.  My favorite way to spend my birthday is with her, sharing hopes and dreams, listening to stories and just chattering at each other as we do.  And this year she turns 85 - so there's a big bash planned!  I can't wait!

3. This is from Amy W. (I had a request to copy her question and ask it today in BYOC) (Hope that’s okay Amy!)

What do you hide behind?

This might sound counter-intuitive, but work with me here.  I hide behind being tough.  I make you think I can handle it and I'm on it but secretly I'm scared and I want you to hold my hand and love me and tell me it will be alright.  I make you think I am just fine but inside I am really not and I want you to reach out to me and help me.

I guess the nice thing about hiding behind toughness is that, generally speaking, I do get through it and I generally don't have to "bother" my friends, family and loved ones.

But the bad thing about hiding behind toughness it that I feel alone, I feel ostracized quite easily, I feel like there isn't much caring for Lori taking place. 

Funny thing is...majorly going out on a limb here...because it gives away my fake toughness - I see it happening with this blog.  I don't think I convey at all that I need you guys immensely. 

And that conveys exactly what I'm talking about.  I hide behind toughness so that when you all show you don't care, then I don't care either - I didn't put myself out there.  But if I put myself out there (saying I need you) and you still show you don't care (not reading/commenting), then now I'm struggling and hurt.  So I don't put myself out there like I want to and I act like all is well and you think I don't need you and...see how this perpetual circle works? 

Disclaimer here - this is just an example of what I do.  No one in blogworld is or has hurt me.

4. Where were you born?

California

5. A little twist on this one..usually we ask – what blog spoke to you the most, stuck with you, had the most effect on you this week? This week I’m adding to that which comment may have affected you greatly? Sometimes a blog can lead to amazing comments and they deserve their own claim to fame here in this question.

This one is tough.  I'm reading everything from last week and everything from this week and I'm still catching up.  In general, since I'm catching up, I'm not reading the comments.  And I'm not caught up, so it's not fair.  :)  Some people will be left out just because I haven't caught up yet!!!

So what spoke to me the most...Amandakiska's blog about finding peace and Chele's blog about being mad at her dad and wanting to help him.

I need to start writing down what blogs speak to me and when - and comments, too.  I struggle with this one everytime because EVERYONE'S blog speaks to me...or I wouldn't read it.  :)  Sometimes the light and fluffy are just what I need!