08/17/10: What a pain

It's 4:40 friggin AM.  I don't have to be up for another hour and twenty minutes.  But I've already been up for an hour and forty minutes.  Yep.  3 friggin AM.

Why?

Because I'm a nut.

But more importantly, because I had this horrid pain in my throat/chest. 

Heartburn.

Sitting up seems to have helped but it's not gone...and I'm scared to go back to bed.

I was sleeping so danged good, too!

Dangit.

I'm not sure if papaya enzymes would help this...but, of course, I don't have any, so I can't find out.

The only thing I have is antacids.  They've kinda helped.

Kinda.

So I'm thinking a couple things.  One...last night...just before sleeping time...I was hungry.  Stomach growling hungry.  This is not unusual.  It's when I usually eat that little bite or two of cheese I talked about yesterday.  So I had a bite or two of brie.  Did it not go down?  It was another half an hour or so before it was lights out...

I'm also thinking that while I haven't been too tight...just uncomfortably tight...since my last fill....I also know that my (.) changes my fill levels.  Saturday night I was able to eat rice, something I have not been able to enjoy with the most recent fill.

Most recent fill = JUNE friggin' 15th.

And I'm getting absolutely no relief, no easing back to "wide open".  I'd have thought it would be sliding by now.

But back to the story.  Saturday night...I could eat.  Saturday was the last day of my (.).

Sunday it was ALL different.  Sunday I was friggin stuck on mashed potatoes.

Now...this two month old fill...no...it hasn't been so bad as to make me so danged tight I could not eat mushies.  But, like I said, each (.) seems to change my body's response to the band and it's fill level.

Apparently, my body's response this time is to slam it shut?

Yesterday, chicken salad hated me.  For lunch.  I have never had a problem with my chicken salad.

And then there was the brie.  At bedtime.  And there was also a vitamin.

And suffice it to say...here I am...at 4:48 friggin AM...up...because of heartburn.

I know it's me.  I think I've finally gotten the message that my little bedtime snacks must go away.

I know it's me.  This fill has been uncomfortable and wrong for two months now.  I have an appt on Aug 24 and while I want to go visit them tomorrow, I'm sure I'll have no choice but to wait until Aug 24.  I should have addressed this fill a month ago when I was thinking it was too much.  Or two months ago...

I just want to know how I can make the heartburn stop.  I'M TIRED!  It's sleeping time!

And to make matters worse...so I had a fill on June 15th.  I went back in on July 6th...appt was scheduled for a fill, which I did not want...because I was too tight...but I had this infection popping up at the site of the main incision.  They put me on antibiotics and told me to come back for a follow-up appt on July 15th.  I did.  Infection looked good. 

Infection is back.

So here I am...too tight...with an infection...dealing with heartburn for the very first time in my life.

I'm falling apart.

I'm so TIRED!!!